That feeling you get, when you’re awaken by a call from an acquiantance, saying that he tried to kill himself last night and he feels so lost and needs you to talk to him and hang out because no one else understands. I don’t feel worthy of this. I don’t know him very well. What is it about me that people are drawn to me for advice? I don’t think I am qualified to handle something like this… but I will try my hardest to help. Sigh.

anything by Demi Lovato…. how he loves by Kim walker too.

i play a lot of worship music.. and right now I’m learning sky scraper

yup. playing my guitar now.

i have.. :( ive been trying to distract all day. even writing. its just hard

ok.. its back and honestly I don’t think I even çare. I have to lose weight. I have to get myself together. It is what it is. I have to lose. :( i’ve become so fat. and ugly. Its disgusting. So Starting. right now. Right this minute I’m done eating. I’ve got to do this…. I’m done. I have to do this.